It seriously hit me hard. Like hard hard. I encourage everyone to read it.
After reading it, letting it really soak in, I came to two conclusions.
1. I let things get to me way too easily. Then, I let those things dig their stupid, meaningless claws into my brain where they constantly bug the crap out of me. You see, I'm a worrier (I might have mentioned this before). Tiny things, things that happened years ago, still nag me. Most of the people that were involved in these insignificant happenings probably don't even remember them or remember them differently than I do, but still, they're there in my brain. This habit has got to stop because pretty soon, when TSIBAN is released, there will be people who like my book (hopefully), but there will also be people who really don't like it, maybe even hate it. I've already vowed not to read the bad reviews, like the really bad ones that might be super hurtful. I don't know if this makes me smart or a coward, but it's just the way I'm going to approach the whole thing because life is too short, dude.
2. I have GOT to unclench when it comes to writing. I have GOT to relax and remember what is wonderful about doing this. I don't know what it is that's causing this sometimes overwhelming feeling of fear and doubt. Maybe I'm trying to hard to improve, maybe I'm letting other people's writing intimidate me because there are so many awesome authors and am I even worthy of a place on a shelf even close to them and *PANIC*
... Deep breaths...
See how quickly the anxiety sets in?
So, here's my promise to myself (and maybe you want to join me on this):
I shall care less.
Simple enough. Easy? Highly doubtful, but if by saying that over and over in mirror gets me another thousand words down then it is worth it.
And just to end on a happy note:
I'll be right there with you, trying to care less. And probably (in my case) failing to do so and diving for the nutella jar instead. ;) I'll share it with you, though.
ReplyDeleteI did enjoy that post by Chuck Wendig, however hard the advice is to follow.
And also? I agree with the Doctor-- you do look beautiful today! (and I know this because I am outside your house. That movement in the bushes near the front porch? Yeah. Brace yourself.)
Oh, is that you? *fires up the Doctor Who, pours some wine* PARTY TIME!
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